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01 June 2016

Burst into flame.

"In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out.  It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being.  We should all be thankful for those peple who rekindle the inner spirit" Albert Schweitzer

I am. 

Thankful.

I am also excited.

The flame has been lit, but not only has it been lit, it is burning brightly, strongly.  Quite unxpectedly. 

I am thankful for the person who has rekindled MY inner spirit.

For not only has that spirit been rekindled but what was a few months ago a simple connection, a beginnings of a new friendship has been rekindled too.

I am thankful to feel all that it brings to me.

I hear his voice, his words.  

I see his submissive need, his vulnerability and it draws me in, it fans the flames.  I see his longing and I find myself drawn to wanting to hurt him.  Not just physically, but in a way that I need - emotionally.

I find myself wanting to reach in to his heart, twisting it, turning it and then soothing away the hurt that my beast, my need has caused him.  It has been a very very long time that someone has quite touched my beast in this way, has touched me in this way.

He has rekindled the inner spirit.  He has awoken my beast. 

The flames are burning.  How they wil burn time will tell.  How big the flames will grow we cannot tell the future.  But, my inner spirit has been rekindled, it is burning, brightly.

And I am feeling so many things right now.

And for that, I am thankful!




2 comments:

  1. a truly fortunate person has founf his place

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  2. There is so much sadistic tenderness in this depiction that it touches me deeply.
    Superficially the beast may be disturbing, even frightening - nevertheless and above all it is adorably beautiful in its omnipotent power and vigour.

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